You told me you want to marry her. She cheated and you want to marry her.

But here I am down for you like I’ve been since we were kids.

I’m so fucking annoyed at myself for holding on to something that will never happen

I was just trying to convince myself that I was happy.
I made the right choice, but I’m still not happy.

I’m really starting to realize that I deserve better.

I’ve really learned my self-worth after constantly being taken for granted.
I have a lot of love to give, and one day someone will value that.

Why do I always love the ones that are fucked up over someone else.

Maybe I’m asking for too much after what I put you through. I can never truly understand how you feel and how hard it is for you. I just don’t want to think of you and feel sorry and scared because you love me and I don’t love you.
All I know is that I have something to look forward to again if you give it the chance.
I want you to see me. I want to show myself to you without trying to look for answers and without being cautious, no matter what it means in the end.
Even if it leads to you not loving me anymore.
I just want you to see me so if it really doesn’t work out this time, I can let go without regrets or lingering feelings.

When will I go back to having nights where I don’t think about you

I still fucking think about you and it pisses me off

Let’s be happy

No matter how much I think about it I don’t fucking understand

The things you say fuck me up mentally. So much bullshit comes out of your mouth. You’re apart of the reason I will never believe shit niggas say.

This is why I don’t fuck with shit like love

I can’t stand it when people can’t make decisions for themselves

12am-3am is a dangerous time
I always regret what I say when I wake up in the morning

If only you knew what I’m actually thinking behind all the silence